It's funny how life works out ....

It's only been few days since then . Yet the time felt extremely slow .... but the pain can be felt deep inside .

I've always had the urge to message and call you ... but am scared to annoyed you . Now , I don't think I should anymore ... and it kills me .

I wish I could tell you , I miss you ... I really do ...

Somethings just gotta be done. Either it's in a appropriate method or the cruelty treatment. I do not need anyone to understand the complete chapters of my stories. I just wish the decision I made will be the best.

Am having my toughest time for the moment

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'
DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.
SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.
SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'
SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.
SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard every day for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.

'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you.

Here's the $25 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.

One day , after the school exam , the girl called the boyfriend.
"Baby , I got off early today , are you free to pick me home now?"
"Sure baby , give me 5 minutes."

It was 2 in the afternoon, the sun was raging hot .. 5 minutes gone .. she looked at the watch .. 10 minutes gone .. he did not show up yet .. she started worry ..
After 15 minutes , he finally came and she asked, “what took you so long?” He took it frivolously and answered “Well , I was watching TV..” the girlfriend was quite angry. He knew and he said "I’m sorry.” He is a self importance and high egotism guy. He never said sorry to anyone. It was the first apology he made to the girlfriend. She looked at him and she forgave him. He is the type of person that never explain, never argue, he never had a fight with his girlfriend. As long as he said sorry to the girlfriend, she would actually forgive him. He would only apologize to his girlfriend, the one and only one.

She blamed him for not changing his attitude and never changed or improved even though he admitted his faults. She was upset, she thinks that the boyfriend was using the apologies for sheltering himself. After 59 times of apologies, she finally dropped her tears and told him "Please stop telling me that you’re sorry if you’re not intended to change. Please stop making me to believe that you would actually change.” He was guilty, he hugged her tight and said “I’m sorry” for the 60th times.

After a period, the girlfriend started to distrust him..
"What happened to you lately?" the girl asked in the phone.
"Nothing happened"
"Then why you behaved like this?"
"I said nothing happened"
"Do you know that i’m feeling very insecure and I’m so worried about you.. do you really care about me?" the girlfriend started crying..
The boyfriend silent for seconds and told “I’m sorry..”
"I don’t want to hear sorry anymore" she hanged up
He never called back, the girl thinks he doesn’t care about her. That was his 99th sorry..

They both never contacted ever since that day. Sometimes she received some silent calls. She knew it was him..
After a month, as she was passing by his office she decided to look for him. The office colleagues told her that he has quit the job one month ago. The girl called his mobile but only left with the voicemail. She started worried bout him. She called the house phone, but no one ever picked up. She dropped by to his house, but no one was there. She assumed that he has shifted somewhere else to work, or maybe family trip or perhaps, he has a new girlfriend and moved to somewhere else.

While she is thinking all the possibilities, her cellphone phone ranged.. it was from the boyfriend’s mother.
"He has been admitted to the hospital"
"But....but ....how?" the girl was shocked
"Even though he asked me not to tell you, but come and meet him......... please.."

She took a cab to the hospital, she was panicked and she has no clue about what happening. She ran to his room, she saw him laying down without much movements. The boyfriend was making an eye-contact and look at her.
She started asking him, “What is happening? Why didn't you call me?”
He didn’t answer, he just stares at her.
"Answer me, why are you not talking?"
He dropped a tear from his eye, he used his last body strength to say “I’m sorry”. He closed his eyes thereafter.

"Please don’t pretend. Why sorry? I don’t want you to say sorry. Please ... wake up , answer me." She cried next to him, pulling his shirt. "Why are you saying sorry? Give me a reason, I’m not gonna forgive you, please wake up, I beg you.. wake up..I want to hear from you, please..”
This is his 100th sorry.

The nurses and doctor pulled her away for rescue. She was totally blanked.. He never left her, just that she not able to touch him. Sometimes she dreams of him telling her how he has been doing. He is always with her, in her mind, in her heart, she is still thinking that he is calling her "baby" most of the times.. Just that, she not going to hear anymore “Sorry” from him.

A few months later, the boyfriend’s mother gave her a box. There are 100 pieces of photographs inside the box. At the back of each photo marked the word “sorry” with a story that happened to both of them.
1st sorry – Baby, I didn’t mean to be late today. I know this is lame reason on watching TV, but I got a heartache before I tried to come for you. I couldn't move, I tried my best, forgive me please.
2nd sorry – Baby, I..
3rd sorry – Baby, I..
100th sorry – Baby, I didn’t mean to leave you behind. Just that God did not give me a chance to take care of you, to put the ring on your finger. You are the first girl that I've ever said sorry, an you are also the person I would like to spend my life with. Forgive me as I couldn’t bring you the happiness, I’ll be your angel, I’ll bless you always. Don’t cry, I don’t wish to see you cry, I love you.
He took the last photo in hospital, he was pale and skinny. He gave his best smile, and he took the 100th photo. She hugged the photos and cried in pain ....